In the summer of 2024, I read an article about aphantasia or “lack of a mind’s eye”. I had always assumed it was simply an expression, not a reality.I began questioning friends, realizing that most people can visualize things, faces, places, etc.
The biggest challenge with accepting death is that I can never “see” that person or loved one again, except in photos or dreams. I’d lost my other ridgeback, Wimbo, less than a year prior and my mother’s battle with Alzheimer’s continued. Mabruki, my dog, was experiencing seizures, limiting my studio time. This creation was created over many days, in small increments, while I dotted the canvas to show others what I “see” when I close my eyes. There’s nothing there but static, like the tv from Poltergeist. This piece helped me process why I “feel” things so acutely, why goodbyes are a gift, and why I can find beauty almost anywhere.